Revolving stars

Just ended one lesson and waiting for the next one. Finally succeeded in not stalling the car. But did something stupid. Din realize how scary it can be when I'm tired and driving a car. It really makes a whole lot of difference. Kind of regretted chatting till 2 in the morn but Overall I guess it was still gd. Calmed my insecurities somewhat. And I dun think I can do the play hard to get kinda stuff. Totally not in my nature. Work has been piling up but it just seems sian to me. Haiz. Being cooped up in an office is not my idea of fun.

没有安全感。 Now I totally get the meaning of a peaceful life. Because I currently do not have one. If only I have a emotion switch that can be turned off anytime I want to. On the other hand, I learnt that DSS is like social safety net. He's the one that I can go whining to; the one who doesn't judge what I'm doing; the one who gives me advice; the one who knows what I need more than I do. I'm eternally grateful to him, even though he probably doesn't know it. I now understand why he said the words that he said to me before. I hope I can grow up a bit more, and really find the someone that he said I would find.

I'm good at ignoring. but sometimes, is it better to loosen up a bit and just have some fun? I wish this is a transparent map that shows me which way I am going, before it's too late. Would any of us take the first step out, into an unknown zone? Which reminds me. I better get the mins out soon.

If really die die also have to choose someone, I will probably choose him. After all, I think he is the only person who will think that I am incapable of spending wealth. And even though I'm capable of sending myself back home, he volunteered the cab. Of course, with all the flaws that I have seen with my own eyes.

ends up that u're the first to know it. You who inches up in my priority list, though there is not much priority to speak of. I can only wait. (which is quite stupid, imo)

Joy-killer is the word for work. Why must everyone be in some artificial mode when it comes to work? Japan trip was awesome, but it did not have the wow-factor that I have expected. Sometimes, it is really better not to think about stuff which might or might not happen.

is more difficult than I imagined it to be.