Revolving stars

Feb was a busy month, with all the Chinese New Year's family visiting. Granted, I have not been doing my share of visiting (ahem) but still busy nevertheless. Work has been hectic recently. Honestly, whoever said that working in the government sector is chill work has not worked in my department yet. So, I only managed to clock 6.5hours of Italki lesson time in Feb, which fell short my 12 hours target. I shall try better next time. On a brighter note, I am picking up ocarina lessons, which I am hoping really hard that it would get me into SSEAYP this year. If I get better at it, maybe I should post a video of me playing (the current me sucks at it for now lol)

I have been using Italki since the start of the year; new year resolution :P and it seems to be working quite well for me. Till date, I have started on 2 packages and the teachers are pretty good. I think it pays to look through the reviews and get somebody that you think you would be comfortable with. The only drawback is that the skype connection is sometimes bad and eats into the lesson time, but it's a technical issue that can't be easily solved. But so far I have no complaints. So, my resolution for this year for language learning is: 1) to sustain the korean lessons for 1/2 hr each week 2) to sustain the japanese lessons for 1hr each week Hopefully by the end of the year, I would be able to pass my N1 (I totally know that I have been dragging this since forever!) and TOPIK 2. I am so contemplating if I should take up the Russian classes too, since it is not as expensive as taking it in Singapore, but I shall KIV till I have more spare time. Time is a luxury...

The picture that states 'Everyone says love hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuse these things with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.' But think about it. It's because of the existence of love that people will get lonely,  get rejected. If you do not know love, then there is no way to compare and contrast, because you will never know something if you have no experience of. Isn't it? I feel that people think that love is great because love have been too romanticised by the various media. You see it everywhere; movies, dramas, books etc. But these all have the mainstream definition of love. People define love differently, and I don't think that you can just classify love into one category and dump all the examples together. I know I'm adopting the socratic method here but I feel irritated when people make s...

I am disgusted by this whole homosexuality and library book ban fiasco. I am all for Pinkdot because I believe that they have a right to be loved, even if it is considered to be straying from the "cultural norms" Amongst us, there might be closeted homosexuals (who may be your friends, colleagues, relatives, siblings etc.) who do not dare to disclosure their gender preference as they are afraid of the reactions that they might get. Should we condemn them? I think not. Instead, we should give them emotional support. Admitting to be an "outsider" takes courage. I am disappointed with the Christians who claimed to be loved unconditionally by God and yet condemn the people who are different from them. Please show some love and care for these people as they are as human as the rest of us are. Why condemn them when they have done you no harm? That alone, is for God to judge. You, as a fellow human being, have no right to judge other people for what they do. And, the...

I realised that there must be some unhappy stuff happening during our anniversary each year. So far, it has met my expectations every time. This time last year, you told me that you aren't rich enough to buy me a proposal ring. This year, you skipped our anniversary dinner to have dinner with your mum and sister. Sometimes, I really wonder if I am truly in your heart. I mean, you can apologise all you want but it doesn't erase the facts that these has happened. It's like killing someone and crying at the person's tombstone saying that he's sorry for what he has done. This is what people called, "blinded in love." I wonder if we would have continued for so long/got married if we had not gotten the BTO flat. It seemed to be a good idea then, but on hindsight, we should probably have thought longer and harder about it. I was head over heels with the idea of having my own flat with no parents to fuss over what I'm doing to properly analyse the ...

Went to Ikea on Sat. It has been our favourite place ever since we got together? We finally had dinner at Ikea even though we have been there for quite a few times. Super a lot of food for the two of us We also managed to narrow down some stuff that we want for our house when it's ready :D This afternoon, we finally sat down and talked about emil. Our lunch was peppered with happy talks till the topic came up, and he could tell that I didn't really want to talk about it. (or think about it even) After my afternoon nap, we chatted again and he brought up the same topic. I agree that I am very bias against her, but I really can't stand the thought of PL being bullied by emil even though he thinks that she is not. After much discussion, I agree to try to be more gracious to her. (I am only trying hor.) He told me that he was very willing to continue on the relationship when he brought me back to his house at first, seeing how okay I was with his family. I ...

*Phew* It was hard work, entertaining all the relatives and friends. This year is the first time that we both felt the full force of both families' schedules, and it was quite tiring. It was quite interesting to meet someone who has the same name as me in PL's family, where his nephew's girlfriend is also called Jieyi. I was super confused everytime one of his relatives call Jieyi, because I'm not sure if they are calling me. We also went to visit one of his mum's friend's daughter housewarming party at Woodlands. They got their flat at 270k for a four room flat, which is still cheaper than our 3room flat!! PL commented that he wants to move to Woodlands instead, and I told him if that is the case, I want to have an Executive Mansionette. I'm just so glad we are (almost) done with everything and I can just stay home and nua~

Woke up super early. The rest were still slping. I think chengwei was the second one to wake up. And some of the guys have to go back to sg early, so left me, yuxi, mj, zy and bh. 5 of us. The guys dabaoed a muffin each for us, but it was totally not nice. And we drank white wine in the morning sia. Not a lot la, but then it is quite shocking. Slacked until around 12 den we went off to BCG mall (i think) and ate lunch there. We had fries marathon, and it was horrible. Cheese fries become thousand island fries. I think they dunno how to cook de. After that we went arcade again. On the way, we saw some tattoos shop and bh was jokingly saying that he will sponsor pple to do tattoo! haha. And we also went to the hypermart to buy stuff again. For the whole trip, it was just eating, and walking around, eating again, not forgetting our dearest arcade for company. Imagine. We played until we got 500+ tickets, which is a hell lot considering that we were there only for 2 days.

Met Chin-i, cw, mj, kyn and zy at harbourfront in the morning to take the ferry to batam in the morning. And almost all of us were late. HAHA. supposed to meet at mac and eat too, but only 3 of us managed to sit down there to eat. And the reason gave was because the iphone alarm didn't work and cw couldn't wake up. It was quite funny. We went to the counter and took our advance tickets. It was batamfast, and the guys only remembered that they have to notify SAF that they are going overseas AFTER they scan their passports. Nice. HAHA. They kinda panicked and stood there using the iphone to send the notification. So, we ended up being one of the last few going into the ferry and got lousy seats which are stuffy, and there were also people smoking in the ferry. Not good. MJ and I htht-ed in the ferry while cw just slpt RIGHT AFTER he got on board. Damn zai. With us talking so loudly, I'm amazed that he can slp right through it. Took like around 45 mins to reach batam. I go...

Did something that was OOC. I'm sorry that I told a lie. I ought to be shot. Knew for certain that any illusions that were there are gone now. I still don't know what to do, but in a different sense. It was tiring but it was very worth it =) End of report.

When you think you're in love, you feel that you can do anything for love. Only he matters. When you get together, you think of the marriage and the future, and how happy you would be. ohhh, the classic happily ever after story. When you're in the honeymoon period, going out, spending time together and feeding each other food seems like the best activities in the world. When the honeymoon period of the relationship ended, faults started to show up, becoming more obvious by the day. But you think you can live with it. "Because love is strength", according to all the romance novels, dramas and movies. Then, everyone starts to take everything for granted. "I know she will understand." "I know he will understand." Both parties get into a routine of assuming things, because you think he/she is the one for you and nothing will ever get between. One day, one party exploded. "I was wrong about you! I thought that you were the one for me; so...