Revolving stars

Just ended one lesson and waiting for the next one. Finally succeeded in not stalling the car. But did something stupid. Din realize how scary it can be when I'm tired and driving a car. It really makes a whole lot of difference. Kind of regretted chatting till 2 in the morn but Overall I guess it was still gd. Calmed my insecurities somewhat. And I dun think I can do the play hard to get kinda stuff. Totally not in my nature. Work has been piling up but it just seems sian to me. Haiz. Being cooped up in an office is not my idea of fun.

没有安全感。 Now I totally get the meaning of a peaceful life. Because I currently do not have one. If only I have a emotion switch that can be turned off anytime I want to. On the other hand, I learnt that DSS is like social safety net. He's the one that I can go whining to; the one who doesn't judge what I'm doing; the one who gives me advice; the one who knows what I need more than I do. I'm eternally grateful to him, even though he probably doesn't know it. I now understand why he said the words that he said to me before. I hope I can grow up a bit more, and really find the someone that he said I would find.