Now I totally get the meaning of a peaceful life. Because I currently do not have one.
If only I have a emotion switch that can be turned off anytime I want to.
On the other hand, I learnt that DSS is like social safety net. He's the one that I can go whining to; the one who doesn't judge what I'm doing; the one who gives me advice; the one who knows what I need more than I do. I'm eternally grateful to him, even though he probably doesn't know it.
I now understand why he said the words that he said to me before.
I hope I can grow up a bit more, and really find the someone that he said I would find.